hello. my name is tea, and i'm not really around here anymore.

to give the short version of my story, i left this account back in april of 2020 after feeling too overwhelmed with emotions; stuff like feeling abandoned and wanting everyone to give me attention, and so i resolved that the best way to get better was to leave, for starters. i thought maybe giving myself a few months or even a whole year would help me get better mentally and that i would return within that time period, but now it's october of 2022, 2 years later, and i finally have an update that i think is worth sharing.

i'll start by telling you that i've never really left, just that i've been "starting fresh" through a different account that i made not even a day after i left this account. i initially wanted to try a different approach to interacting with others. my plan was to find a small group of friends to stick with instead of trying to keep up with having so many friends across many different groups, and that fortunately came to me quickly. i found a small group of friends through my brother that i still play with after a couple years, and having that quickly improved my mental health and i was able to create a healthier personality and mindset. i even branched out to some other people from this account that i felt REALLY comfortable with opening up to, and even then it took a lot of courage for me to do that. and since then, i've been doing so much better, and honestly i'm really sorry to all who may have been waiting for me to come back, sorry for not saying anything sooner.

i recently caught myself mentioning that it's important that i at least check in on my friends and say "hi" every now and then, it doesn't have to be super often, but enough so that people know i'm okay and that i know they're okay too. saying that then made me feel kinda fake; why would i preach about that when i've been gone for over 2 years? it's only fair that i make right by my statement and give you this update, and follow up on it too. i feel that i've invested so much good time and memories on my other account that coming back to this account wouldn't feel right, so don't expect me to come back for gaming or anything on here, but instead please feel free to message me on discord. my tag is still chamomiles#0126 and i will check on it every so often to see if anyone says "hi" or something so that i can respond back.

i saw that there were some nice messages left on my profile here, some of you hoping i'm doing well and all that, and i'm grateful for that. i hope everyone has been doing well as well. i wanted to end this message with hoping that if you happen to see this message, please feel free to let others who know me know that i'm doing alright and that i hope they're alright too. maybe we'll talk again sometime. take care for now <3